Today was the "Big" 20 week ultrasound...you know the one that would tell us if girls would run the house or if boys would lead this pack of ours. I'm tickled 'pink' (yes, pun intended) to announce that it will be a little girl. She was pretty jazzed to be joining our family too, as you'll see from the somersault she was doing during the ultrasound...
The good news is, she's there, she's healthy, her heart is beating and she's growing more and more everyday! She is breech right now, but because I'm already doing a scheduled C-section, there was no worry or panic that came with that news. My son, who really wanted a brother, and had last week announced if it was another sister he would not like it, took the news really well. We had a good talk on how little sisters needed big brothers to protect them and help them fight bad guys, and that was good enough for him. At my last doctor appointment we couldn't hear the heart beat because my placenta is in front which makes it a little harder to detect, so seeing that heart beat and her roll around was an amazing feeling!
I'm reminded how I can trust God. His plan, his purpose. When we could not hear her little heart beat at the last appointment, I realized God had already written her story. He's already woven her life into mine. He's made plans for her and no amount of worry would change that. I had to trust him. She's there. I can't hear her, but she's there. I can barely feel kicks due to an anterior placenta, but she's there. God's there, he's reminding me to trust him. When I am unsure, he is covering me. When I am in doubt, he is saying 'lean on me, not on what you see or hear'. And I am so grateful to have a good God, who has plans for us all, including this baby girl of mine.
Thank you friends for celebrating with us today and sharing our joy!
"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track."
-Proverbs 3:5-6 (The Message)